A lifetime inside Hobe Sound Bible Church
My name is Wesley Todd. I am a devoted follower of Jesus Christ, and my greatest desire is to serve Him with all my heart, mind, and soul, advance His Kingdom, and help others discover the truth of His Word.
I was raised in Hobe Sound Bible Church in Hobe Sound, Florida. For most of my childhood, this church represented nearly everything I understood about God, Christianity, salvation, and what it meant to be a true believer. I knew the people. They knew my family. It was familiar, comfortable, and deeply connected to my earliest memories.
Looking back, I recognize that some of the religious teachings I absorbed as a child created spiritual obstacles that followed me well into adulthood. I am sharing this story not because I hate the church or its members, but because I love Jesus Christ and believe that no church, pastor, denomination, or religious institution should ever be placed above the authority of God’s Word.
When I mistook outward appearance for Christianity
One of my earliest spiritual struggles was the way I had been taught to recognize other Christians. As a young person, I came to believe that genuine Christians could be identified largely by their outward appearance. Women were expected to dress in particular ways. Jewelry, makeup, and ordinary appearance became, in my mind, indicators of someone’s spiritual condition. I came to believe that very few people outside our religious community were truly Christians.
I remember being incarcerated for the first time as a young man. Some Christian women came into the jail to minister to us. They had beautiful spirits. Their kindness, compassion, and love for Christ were evident. Yet I immediately distrusted them, because they wore makeup, earrings, wedding rings, and clothing different from what I had been taught Christians should wear. I could see Christlike qualities in these women, but my religious conditioning caused me to question whether they were even saved.
That memory has troubled me for years. I had been taught to judge people by their outward appearance, while Scripture teaches that God looks upon the heart. “The Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7). Even today I sometimes recognize that old tendency resurfacing. I have had to confront it on purpose. That is one reason I consider religious legalism so damaging. It can teach a person to distrust genuine Christian love and to put confidence in outward conformity.
The television rules that never made biblical sense to me
I grew up around a religious tradition in which television ownership and viewing were condemned or severely restricted. When computers became commonplace, I began noticing an obvious contradiction. People who had condemned television were watching substantially similar programming on computer screens. The content had not necessarily changed. Only the device had changed.
I believe the original religious leaders made a serious mistake by treating a particular technology as inherently evil rather than evaluating the content people consumed and the choices they made. I can understand how sincere people, especially in earlier generations, might have reached mistaken conclusions about new technology. What troubles me is the reluctance to acknowledge those mistakes and correct the resulting traditions. Maintaining a religious restriction after recognizing that its original reasoning was flawed places institutional consistency above biblical truth.
I have also wondered whether fear of offending longtime members, or of losing financial support, sometimes discourages religious institutions from admitting mistakes. I cannot establish that this is the motive of Hobe Sound Bible Church’s leadership, but I believe it is a legitimate question. A church should never be more committed to preserving its traditions than to correcting its errors.
My concerns about public fundraising
Even as a child, I was disturbed by certain fundraising practices I witnessed. I remember religious services that became extended fundraising events, sometimes lasting for hours. I recall large donations being publicly announced and donors being asked to stand before the congregation for recognition. I remember amounts such as $10,000 being associated with these public appeals.
To me, this seemed inconsistent with Jesus’ teaching in Matthew 6:1–4, where He warns against performing charitable acts in order to be seen by others. I believe Christian giving should be motivated by love, compassion, and obedience to God, not public applause or religious pressure. I also questioned why entire services sometimes seemed devoted to raising money rather than preaching the Gospel. There were occasions when I returned to the church after years of absence, encountered fundraising services that deeply troubled me, and walked out. I sometimes stayed away for years afterward.
Churches have legitimate financial needs, and fundraising is not inherently unbiblical. My objection is to what I personally experienced as excessive pressure, public recognition, and the spiritual effect of those practices.
Questioning the doctrine of entire sanctification
Another major disagreement began when I was about thirteen or fourteen. I struggled with the doctrine of entire sanctification as it was presented in the holiness tradition. Even at that age I questioned the idea that Christians must experience a distinct additional work of grace in the particular manner I understood the church to teach. As I grew older and studied Scripture, I became convinced that this doctrine, as I had been taught it, was inconsistent with salvation, grace, and the continuing work of the Holy Spirit.
Christians from different traditions interpret sanctification differently. I believe some presentations of this doctrine place unnecessary burdens on believers and confuse the relationship between salvation, holiness, and spiritual growth. A teaching does not become biblical simply because generations of respected religious leaders have repeated it.
Returning from prison and looking for a church family
My life eventually took me through years of incarceration. During that period I made a profound personal commitment to Jesus Christ. I studied Scripture, preached to others, prayed with fellow prisoners, and became involved in ministry. I dreamed of returning to the church where I had grown up and sharing my testimony. I also hoped to find a Christian community that would help me rebuild my life. I remember a prison chaplain encouraging me with the belief that Christians had a responsibility to help fellow believers in need.
When I returned to Hobe Sound Bible Church, many people remembered me and my family. They greeted me, asked about my father, and spoke kindly. I was disappointed that, during those visits, no one asked whether I had somewhere to live, whether I needed work, or whether I needed practical assistance. I would probably have been reluctant to accept help. Still, I had hoped someone would at least ask. I knew that some members operated successful businesses and had the resources to offer employment or other support.
This caused me to reflect on Matthew 25:35–40 and James 2:14–17, which emphasize the practical responsibilities of Christian love. I do not claim to know what every church member understood about my circumstances. My experience left me feeling that the church I had known all my life had failed to demonstrate the practical concern I had hoped to find.
The conviction that changed everything
About six months before beginning this ministry, I entered one of the hardest periods of spiritual examination in my life. For decades I had accepted the belief that Christians were obligated to support the modern nation of Israel. I had also absorbed the idea that criticizing Israel could bring God’s judgment or a curse upon my life.
I remember seeing a politician in Congress speaking about the suffering of Palestinian civilians. My immediate reaction was not compassion or curiosity. I assumed the politician must be spiritually deceived, or even demonically influenced. I had not investigated the evidence. I had simply reacted according to beliefs I had accepted for years. Eventually I asked myself a frightening question: what if I had been taught to reject the truth before I was even willing to examine it?
I was afraid to investigate. I feared that questioning my previous understanding of Israel might mean questioning God Himself. I began praying, fasting, and studying Scripture. I examined the passages concerning Israel, the covenants, the teachings of Jesus, righteousness, wickedness, and the responsibility of believers toward suffering people. I also began examining reports about the destruction and civilian suffering in Gaza. My convictions changed. I came to believe that unconditional Christian support for the modern state had been deeply mistaken, and that no modern government should receive unconditional moral approval from Christians merely because it identifies with a biblical nation. I became convinced that supporting or excusing atrocities against innocent people could never be reconciled with the teachings of Jesus Christ.
I repented before God for what I believed had been my previous spiritual blindness. I made a personal commitment. I would not simply walk away from beliefs I considered false and leave others struggling with the same fears. I would do what I reasonably could to help other Christians examine these questions for themselves.
My final attempt to return
Despite my disagreements with several church teachings, I still wanted to return. This was my childhood church. It was where my family had worshiped and where I had known people for decades. I hoped I might participate while remaining faithful to my convictions. Before returning, I needed to understand the church’s position regarding Israel.
I searched the website and attempted to contact people associated with the church. I sent emails, text messages, and other inquiries over a period of months. Many went unanswered. I also attempted to contact Alan Barr and other individuals I believed might be able to clarify the church’s position. One Friday afternoon, after work, I drove to the campus hoping to speak with someone. I encountered Mrs. French, whom I remembered as a longtime member of the church community. I asked whether the church supported the modern nation of Israel. She told me she did not know.
Eventually I sent a detailed message explaining my concerns and requesting a simple answer from the pastor. I was not asking for an extended theological debate. I wanted to know whether the church officially supported Israel so I could decide whether returning would violate my conscience. Pastor Matt Ellison responded: “As a pastor, (leader of HSBC) I support and stand with Israel, as do many within the congregation.”
That statement became the turning point. I understood his response as confirmation that he personally supported Israel and that many congregants shared that position. His statement did not explain his views on every Israeli government policy or military action. I remained deeply concerned about what that support meant in the context of Palestinian suffering. I sent further messages explaining my objections and sharing material I believed he should consider. I did not receive the substantive theological engagement I had hoped for. I concluded that I could not return without compromising my conscience. That decision was painful. I was not walking away from a congregation I had discovered recently. I was walking away from a religious institution connected to almost my entire life.
Why I established Cult Watch
My decision to establish Cult Watch was not motivated by a desire for personal revenge. I do not want to destroy Christianity. I do not hate the people who attend Hobe Sound Bible Church. I recognize that many people in the congregation are sincere, compassionate, and deeply committed to what they believe is right. Sincerity does not guarantee that a religious teaching is correct.
I believe my childhood religious environment contributed to years of unnecessary spiritual fear, judgmental attitudes, and confusion. I do not want others to experience those same struggles. I also believe Christians have a responsibility to question teachings that appear inconsistent with Scripture, especially when those teachings influence how believers respond to human suffering.
My purpose is not to lead people away from Jesus Christ. My purpose is to encourage them to place their faith in Jesus Christ rather than in the unquestioned authority of religious institutions. I believe that light should expose darkness, that truth should withstand examination, and that every pastor, church, and religious organization should be accountable for what it teaches and practices.
The name Cult Watch reflects my concern about spiritual manipulation, excessive religious control, and the dangers of unquestioning loyalty to religious authority. It does not mean that every church investigated has already been determined to be a cult. Readers should examine the evidence and reach their own conclusions.
I remain a follower of Jesus Christ. I believe in the power of prayer, the authority of Scripture, the importance of repentance, and the responsibility of Christians to love their neighbors. My desire is to help believers rediscover those principles without the burdens of fear, manipulation, or unnecessary religious traditions. I am not asking anyone to abandon their faith in God. I am asking them to examine whether their faith has been placed in God, or in an institution claiming to speak for Him.
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